When I was 10 years old I gave my life to Christ and got baptized. I live in the South so I grew up in a religious family that believed in going to Church and giving God all the praise and the glory that He deserves. Church is where I found my voice. I am proud to say that I one of those women that grew up in the Church and can now sing beautifully the songs of the Lord. I participated in the Choir and I was a praise dancer growing up. My family is religious and they praise and honor God but honestly they never pushed me to give my life to Him. They didn't force me to believe in something that I didn't want to. Most people are raised by parents and family that force them to know Jesus and to have a relationship with Him. You can't do that. You have to want to know Him for yourself. A relationship with Jesus is something you can't fake and it's definitely something you can't force. You have to desire to know Him in your heart.
In 2014, I was in a relationship that lasted a year and a half. And even though I was 18 at the time, I seriously thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with that man. I really gave the relationship my all and we did absolutely everything together. When I gave my life to Christ, I promised Him and myself that I will live by His rules in the Bible and that I won't compromise who I am or the feelings that I have for the Lord for anyone. With that being said, I am celibate, and I do plan to remain pure until God grants me a hubsand. My boyfriend at the time understood that, or so I thought.
We was together our entire senior year of high school. I loved every minute of it. Of course we had our ups and downs like every relationship has. Of course we had broken up like every couple does. We were in Theatre together, we went to State competition together, and when I went through a major surgery he was there for me, supporting me. I was in love with this man at the young age of 18. And even now that I'm 20, and I have moved forward, I still have some type of love for him. As soon as we graduated high school everything changed. And when I say everything, I mean everything.
Both of us got into summer programs at our different colleges and we were both living on seperate campuses. I knew something was wrong. I could feel it in my spirit. I just didn't want to believe. My boyfriend at the time was also being celibate with me while we were in a relationship. He respected me and my body during our relationship while still in high school. But on graduation day....graduation day he had a different demeanor. It was like he was a different person. Long story short, because I don't want to make this post about him, he cheated on me while living on campus at another college. Words cannot simply describe how hurt I was. I was devastated. He was with someone else and I had to find it all out through social media. Social media is the worst way to find out your significant other is cheating. The whole world can see that you're being cheated on. I couldn't stand it. But I'm glad it happened. That relationship taught me that he wasn't the one even though I wanted him to be. Even months after the break up, I still wanted him to be. But he wasn't the God-fearing man wanted for me God has better plans for me.
I am starting this blog series Becoming A Virtuous Woman because this man reminded me that I am a woman of God. He cheated on me because I am celibate. No woman of God has to compromise herself, her morals, or her values for ANY man. I want to encourage young women that YOU are the prize. YOU are worth far more than rubies. YOU are beautiful. Don't ever let a man tell you any different. Be confident in who you are. Be strong. Be courageous.
I can't wait to start publishing blogs for this series. I hope to encourage and inspire women all over the world. So many women get it confused and I just want to be the one to inspire women to have respect and morals for themselves. You don't have to conform to the ways of this society. For updates on the first post to this series follow me on Instagram and Twitter and like my Facebook page. Always remember to inspire, and be inspired.
Tanisha B.
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